Should I Worry?

Should I worry I may lose every friend I once had? Should I worry that I may lose every Christian friend I once had? Why should I worry about losing every Christian friend I once had, doesn't the bible say thou shall not judge, who is a sinner to judge another sinner, and to love your neighbor like you love yourself? Why are Christians so easy to give up on other Christians? Why are Christians the quickest to show no grace and no mercy and to judge, because they are Christian and because of their morals? Is that what God really wanted? Gossip kills. ...Why is it that people thrive off of other peoples pain? Why do people spread rumors, rumors that hurt, rumors that kill and destroy? I don't understand why the people who consider themselves devout Christian's tell me that I am in the wrong for my sexual-orientation and my beliefs in equality, but are willing to do 10x's more damage by pointing fingers, judging, spreading rumors, and telling one how to live their life through their own point of view, instead of letting God lead them and me, take control, and let His will be done, not their own will for them or me, right or wrong.