Impact

I have been impacted by Christ to do something powerful, to change the world. Every day I go through trials, but I try to keep sight of what it is that is God's plan and God's will for my life. I currently work with many different Social Justice Organizations, work at Rivendell Hospital where I will hopefully get to make a difference in sexually, emotionally, and physically abused adolescents lives, I am a girlfriend, I am a friend, I am a student, and I also inspire to be a mother one day. Through all of these different things I hope to impact the world and make a difference, and not lose myself along the way, and not fail and fall short, although I know I will always fall short of the glory of God, I hope that I always continue to do my best.

I love God with all of my heart and realize that He was called me to be His servant and work with children and the impoverished to the best of my ability. I am set out with that goal in mind, and wish to do so in and outside of the church for the rest of my life.

I with my career path and my career choice want to work with abused adolescents and juvenile delinquents and also do lab research, and then in my spare time I'd like to write and take pictures. I want to document things and write stories about kids, so people can see change and view kids lives, it is so easy to change a child's world.

As a girlfriend, I want to make whoever it is in my future feel completely loved, and be completely in love with them. I want to be able to do all that I can for them, take care of them, and give them all that I can. I want to love with pure passion and be loved right back with that same passion. I want full trust, and I never want to doubt whoever it is that I marry, and it just be the kind of love you do not see, because God is represented in our lives. I never want to be emotionally, physically, or mentally cheated on as I would never do that to my future spouse. I want a binding love, that when times are rough and things are very weak we can still rely on each others faithfulness and love to push us through and persevere until the end.

I want to be a dependable friend, and have dependable friendships. I want to be able to continue and always be there for my friends as they need me or as I may need them. I never want to get lost with any one particular thing or item, I want to learn to balance each thing and love all and do for all.

I hope to be a good student and graduate and continue to be educated all of my life. Education is important and I want to always continue to learn.

One day, I also inspire to be a mother in some way, shape, or form. I fear this a lot, from how I was raised and all that happened to me while I was growing up. If I ever get the chance, I hope to be the best that I can be.

With Social Justice organizations, I realize that I can not do it all, but I want to do all that I can do. When things do not seem simple I hope I never give up or do less than I can do. I hope to always keep my ministry passion at my side and let it grow and let it prosper into all that God wants it to be.


With all of these impacts I also have self goals. These are things that I always just wanted to do through out my life because I have found them interesting and it has been laid upon my heart. With all that I inspire to be and do, I also don't want to lose sight of myself and those goals so I can always continue to inspire to be a very well-oriented person.

Some of those goals would be:

1. I want to one day fly. I want to fly around just to see what it feels like. I feel like flying would be such a free spirited thing and I would just really like to do so. It would be really cool to actually be the pilot, but I don't care. Flying has always been an interest of mine.

2. I want to continue to see concerts. Music and lyrics is a passion and a way of life. It's what has gotten me through a lot of my toughest of times. As I grow older, I don't want to lose sight of my beginning and how I defined myself and the things that helped get me to where I am now.

3. I want to do local Missions work and Missions work around the world. I want to be able to help people near and far.

4. I want to travel. There are several different places I want to see in my life before I die. I don't want to leave the world without giving it my all and seeing what I can, what a shame that would be.

5. Then there are a few random things amongst the crowd that I think would be really cool things to do one day. See my favorite NFL team live, and my favorite MLB team. I highly enjoy sports, and would like to see some live games.

6. For other odds and ends, personal goals I have is to stay physically fit and to always continue to read. As people get older they lose sight of their youth and things they use to do. I want to keep my youth and always grow from where it is that I began.

7. I want to stay in the word of God.

8. Ultimately I want to find love and love someone who loves me for all that I am. They like my silly goals, my serious goals, and all of who I am. Even though sometimes I am not the most realistic person in the universe I want someone who will continue to encourage me and never give up on me. I want someone who will love me unconditionally and even through the roughest of times never abandon me. I want someone who will never be abusive, or put up with abuse. I also want someone who I never have to worry about lying to me, cheating on me in anyway, or abandoning me whenever I screw up... I screw up a lot but I want the relationship to be stronger than that. I want someone who will let me love them unconditionally and do all that I can for them. I want someone who loves me for all of these things and who will take my encouragement and who will push me to be all that I can be as well. The only thing I truly need is someone who wants to go through God's word with me, and try to be as God like in a relationship with me and reflect as much of His love and grace as possible.


Blogger has become an open personal diary and journal where I store my thoughts and feelings, from my inner most vulnerable feelings to my weaknesses, to my fear and my goals, to whom I am and my love and passion.

With this you see my fear is that I will lose myself and fall under with to many different things. All that I inspire and want to be and do with my life, to the people around me who play a very big effect. But you also see my love and my passion, my goals and who I inspire to be and what I want to do, right down to it's very core.