On the Inside

My eyes on you,
It's all I ever want to see,
A small part of me wants to be inside of you,
That emotional thrill,
The physical meal,
Trampling your heart,
Like a little flower who has finally blossomed,
Spread inside of you is a piece of me,
Then comes out a butterfly without its wings,
But I press on and out comes the little dove,
And now I know how to fly,
Just maybe you now know a little about my love,
So we carry on through the rain,
And on the other side of the sun,
We remain lost hand in hand.

Concentration Camp

You try your best,
To cover your wounds with what you do,
But no matter what, your scars cover your body,
The innocence we have runs all over our body,
And when we find something more,
That we cannot believe yet still happens in our world,
Like our own brother touching you in the unholiest of ways,
And the okay from our most beloved parent to do so,
You wonder if your the one going insane,
But broken beneath us is our child like innocence,
That still hides within us,
And comes out every now and again to remind us who we are,
You hide within what you do,
In order to keep your concentration,
Because without your concentration, is when you start to go insane,
If you knew what you really thought then you might not ever love again,
If you knew what you really thought you might not be your own friend,
If you knew what you really thought you might never see anything the same again,
But I need my concentration so I never see the world as it is and I never have to see me for who I really am,
There are so many parts of me you'll never know,
And so many things you'll never see,
Because if you knew the truth you'd never see me for who I am,
It would all merely be sand in time and you'd soon forget,
As it all seems to fade away,
None of this will ever make since to you because this is just the rambling in my head.

How Do I Title What I Don't Know I Feel

Nothing makes sense anymore,
I can't get to the end because I know, no beginning,
I saw you, and you struck my heart,
Will you open up,
Take down your guard,
Take this for what this is?

I couldn't tell you how beautiful you were myself,
You had a man for that,
My heart told me otherwise,
Before this ever began I knew this was ever the same,
Didn't know I'd spend my sleepless nights in your room,
And you'd spend your hours outside your tower with me.

I wanted to be there for you,
Who you'd call when all the pieces fall apart,
I was hanging on a limb,
But I wanted to tell you that you don't need such a strong guard,
Your beautiful and I want in,
So you pulled me under,
And I went for a swim.

When I came up to catch my breath,
You asked "what" but I was lost in you,
Flowing through your eyes and heart,
I took you in close,
I put you in my arms,
Can't I just take you away?
That day we had our moment, where time stopped,
We didn't know if anything would ever be so beautiful again,
It felt as if time was infinite,
I was with you, you were with me,
Both holding on to each other,
Looking for something more out in the sky then anyone else could ever see,
The trees took us in and we ran together that day.

Now your catching on,
Throw our feelings with a football into negative come backs,
Does it have to end, or can I tell you?
Before you say no,
So I can sleep, can you just come to know I've been waiting for you?
But I can't say anything because there is an illusion of the moon over water,
I wish I would have know we'd come down to this,
But I would have never known,
Would you expect any less?

I'd go through this again,
Under the trees,
Where our thoughts blow through the breeze,
What we didn't know was our 'dirty little secret',
Would be spread when trying to 'erase the hate',
I know this is not pretend,
But their words were empty,
People held no weight,
You followed your heart,
I followed my instincts,
I'm thanking God for the time we have together,
But when I take it in, I still won't hold my breath,
No matter what they say though,
I will hold you here until you return back into the wild.

Then comes judgment day,
I lay with you to cuddle like I always do,
My gut turns as I think I want more than a friendship,
I let my hand slide to tell you that I feel for you,
you stare and I feel as if time is infinite,
My breathing is nervous,
And you ask me what I want, but I can't be sure what you mean,
I bury myself in you and I choke, "I like you",
And then guess what, you just might like me to,
And that kiss I'll never forget,
I didn't know if I'd ever feel again,
But in that moment I knew that I could learn to love you,
But that whole next day I anticipated you might have been mistaken,
So then began my chase.

Then when the moment comes when you try to slip away,
Let me be the first to apologize,
From the first hit with a shoe, to the chase down the hallway,
From hurting your feelings, and the day I wouldn't take care of myself,
I wanted to hold on tighter to reassure you that I don't want to take another step without knowing that everything's just like it should be,
I don't know how else to feel,
I just know that when it comes down to the end of the night,
When your the last thing I think of before I fall asleep,
I don't want to wake up the next morning to know when I see you,
I won't see my girlfriend,
I'll never be able to put to words what it is that I see,
I'll never be able to put to words what it is that I feel,
I'll never be able to put to words what it is that I think,
Nothing can truly capture this free spirit love that burns for you.

I hope to one day dance as a free spirit,
Dance naked and run the fields with you,
Then after it rains watch the rainbow form with you,
Maybe no one will ever agree with who we are,
But we will find an ease to be who we are,
So that we never fold over to the turmoil ahead of us,
Our love won't be trapped in a casket,
Buried by man,
Mans words hold no weight over us,
We will escape, hand in lovable hand.